Mental Health Ramblings After a Random BP Article…Just Thoughts (NOT A POEM)

I read A LOT! Like way more than I probably should about bipolar disorder, anxiety, depression, PTSD, abandonment issues, molestation, self-harm, etc. Really anything that I has touched my life I simply read over and over again. I do it myself and would anyways, but my therapist encourages me to do so as well. She throws me links and books that covers all these different topics. Trust me I have covered endless material.  

Tonight, I ran across one that I just was reading and I thought I would throw it out there and tag along my thoughts along with it as I went through it. It may be redundant too many of you, but again to me it helps me relate and cope. 

1st off…the 1st statement said people have mood swings every 5 minutes. Of course, these are set up as of kind of a fact/fiction basis type thing. Verbatim “People with ultradian cycling bipolar have several shifts in a day, but most bipolar sufferers experience them at a far slower rate. Some people even have years of, or years between episodes.”
I truly tend to agree with this for the most part. The misconception is that we are all over the place ALL the time. This is not necessarily the case. But what people do not realize that there are what I refer to as BIG cycles and what I refer to as MINI cycles. I can experience both in short term…very fast paced cycles or longer term like stated above. But for the most past I experience a tremendous amount of mini cycles even throughout a day. And trust me these are not like getting in a bad mood or a good mood and then pushing forth. But anyway…moving onward. 



“But everyone has mood swings. 
Indeed, but ours are not simple mood swings, they’re harmful episodes. People without bipolar, as well as people whose bipolar has been stabilized, experience moods that relate to what’s going on in their lives. People with active/untreated bipolar experience them as a result of the disorder regardless of life events, and at a far more serious level than ‘normal’ moods.”
I suppose this was my previous point. Bipolar cycles are nothing what people call normal moods. I am sorry. There just is a difference. I’ve tried to explain this. I’ve kind of given up on this point and allow them to believe what they want to believe and deal with what I have to on my own and count on my support team who understand.  

And here is another one which so many people how no idea or info about…why? Because they have no interest in educating themselves.  

Bipolar people are always either manic or depressed. 
List all the moods you can think of – we get those too. Where specific bipolar episodes are concerned, there are more options, like mixed states and anxious distress (two of the specifiers listed in the DSM 5), not to mention (shudder) anhedonia, which is the inability to feel pleasure in formerly pleasurable things. 

Many people do in fact know about mixed states but in fact do not still comprehend about these states in the least. Not uncommon to depression…these can be as dangerous as dangerous depression when dealing with suicide. But I’d say so few people understand anxious distress and shutter anhedonia whatsoever. Moving onwards. 

This is one of the most totally ridiculous misconceptions out there! Yes, we can have a blast! We can go out and spend, affairs, drink, take drugs, party, etc… but my god it is far from IT!  

Mania is fun. 
Hypomania (mania lite) can be fun to a certain extent and even mania might feel good – for a while. You’re thinking of things like happiness and euphoria though, moods without negative results. Bipolar is a disorder and mania can feel beyond awful at the time, consist of uncomfortable features (agitation and rage, for example) and have terrible consequences. We all have horrible memories of those. 

I have been at a lost and broken and frustrated reaching out for help and no one understands. Why? Because they believe what they want. The stigma surrounding mania as many parts of bipolar I guess. Moving on again! 
A no brainer here…we all know the answer to this one…but it still is a misconception and still drives me nuts to this day. Bipolar is a progressive illness.  

Bipolar disorder can be cured. I wish. There’s no cure, there’s no recovery. There’s only the possibility of remission. The guarantees are nil, the palliative care is inadequate, the costs are high and a cure is the holiest of holy grails. 

Enough said…moving on. 

This one is another that eats me up inside. Before a serious argument can even be made concerning this statement…really the statistics in each country should be looked at side by side along with bipolar individuals at the same time. 

Bipolar people can’t sustain relationships. 
Relationships are tricky for everyone and there’s no denying that bipolar brings its own set of challenges to the table. That doesn’t mean lasting relationships are impossible for people with bipolar, you wouldn’t even need to go further than WordPress to find lots of people in long relationships and marriages. 


And lastly…something that really gets me because of all the violence that has gone on and all the finger pointing that directly goes to the mentally ill. Yes, there are some individuals that suffer mental illness. It is simply a minority with the massive amount of people that do suffer and do not in fact commit crimes. They also tie in people that are not directly correlated to a specific mental illness as such but just violent behavior and such. And when someone with no history of mental health commits a violent crime it is left unsaid and even talked about.  

Bipolar people are violent/dangerous. 
As with other badly treated minorities, crime etc. stats are higher than they are in the general population, but the statement as it stands is simply another ill thought out generalization. Most people with bipolar disorder are neither violent nor dangerous. 

Enough said…I read this article and I enjoyed reading it. I mostly write poetry…trying to expound a little. Won’t be much…but hey! A little here and there can’t hurt right? Take care all!  

Past Misfortune (A Poem)

*UGH  – Re-write & maybe another re-write coming…my apologies…

I allow myself to precipitate my own sorrow 
I provide the shovel to dig my own grave 
I paint and depict a treacherous sea 
while brushing every deadly final swallowing swell 

I am the foretelling shadow of their young future 
I am the murkiness that they have not identified 
I am the nefarious hidden figure who shall steal their delectation 
to always obscure two told innocent victims of any life 
Two souls stripped of any perception of normality 
two souls deprived of all aspirations and effulgence 
two souls plundered without any choice of their own
Cursed by a sire; handing adversity instead of probability 
She and he were always dreamers, but forced to submit 
she and he were always misconceived and rattled, always unsettled 
she and he were always so strong and fought, until they just broke down 
life’s allowances no more, realization has made its transformation 
A gift! Souls that have been awakened forever… 
@Touching Madness